Now is already 6 o’clock.. Just back home and have a nice bath.. Yesterday night really don’t know what happen, maybe too scare for the exam.. I vomit for more than 4 times, vomit till come out the "yellow water".. And also the cold coffee, make me go toilet for many times.. So stress and feel that my legs are not belong to me.. When drive to college, I can’t control the speed of my car.. Whole body feel so tired.. Whole night didn’t sleep just to prepare for exam..
I well preapred myself at 6.30 morning, I also don’t know why I preare so early.. I asked Lesly they all for breakfast at 7.30.. When i reached, I don’t have the appetite to eat at all.. Feeling vomit also.. My whole brain empty, I can’t remembered what I have read..
Damn scared before entering the exam hall, just told myself to be confidence, just do my best.. But just know that there all are bullshit, when I looked at the exam question, i know my result and my luck for the exam.. I can’t answer the last question, I lost 25 marks for that question.. I don’t have confidence to score.. Haihz.. I just drink a glass of soya for my lunch and till now haven’t eat anything.. Really have no appetite, and already my mummy not to cook my meal..
After lunch then go for facial, I fall asleep when putting mask.. Feel cold and nice.. Feeling so relax after facial.. After that go back office..
Just thought going back office to get the cheque, but the end have to work, but then i told my boss I can’t stand edi.. Feeling dizzy and no mood to work.. Suppose i’ll be happy to collect my cheque, but the end, I don’t have that kind of happy.. Feeling sad somemore.. Don’t know why all these happened..
I can’t fail the paper, I can’t let my parent feel disappointed, and I don’t have time to repeat the subject.. I can’t accept if I really get fail.. It’s better to kill me.. I studied for almost 4 years, why the at last just then the problem happen.. Please god.. Help me please.. I don’t want fail.. I’m not greedy, just hope to get pass.. Now nothing to do, just wait lecturer to mark the paper and asked her about the result by MSN..
This Saturday has friend’s wedding, having buffet dinner at home and I can’t reach there early, just because have to work.. I have to do my job before I go for the dinner.. Hope my buddies won’t get angry la.. Sorry ya.. I’m being force.. Sometimes look at my boss, pity her, she really need people to help her.. I’ll try my best to help.. Nothing much to say.. Ganbateh!!